Writing for me is like running; there are days where I feel like I can take on the whole world and there are days where just a couple of blocks are good enough for me. My fiction book will take some time getting done, but at this rate, I should have a manuscript ready to be edited soon. My goal would be to finish it by the 14th of December of this year at least.
and afterwards, thats where the fun begins.
The price of a dream is the reality that comes with it, if you’ve got the stones, then you’ve paid in full.
From a character in one of the books I am writing, don’t know where I put it though
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So, many of you have noticed that over the past few days, I have been moping about being single. There’s been a combination of events that have taken place over the past few days in my life that have reminded me of just how my dating life seems so futile.
That was one of the hardest pills to swallow, he was getting married, or at least, he was planning to. Sure, we didn’t spend a lot of time together, nor did we ever get past the 3 month mark, but for some reason, I felt a pang of jealousy and self loathing come over me. I couldn’t believe that so much time had passed that he was getting ready to settle down and that I was barely just figuring out my life. If I wasn’t crying on the outside, I sure as hell was on the inside.
Here’s the kicker though, he asked me if I might come to their wedding.
It feel’s very awkward for me to be at the wedding of some guy I’ve been close to, but at the same time, he’s been very nice to me. I have no idea what I will do here, but I have no choice but to cross that bridge when I get there.
For the rest of the day, I felt kinda weak, like I had the wind taken out of me. I didn’t want to be happy, I just wanted to be miserable and lonely, reminded constantly that the world can move on, but not I. I have accepted professional failure and personal failure, but romantic failure, that’s a tough one. It’s hard living a life when you feel that no one wants you, that you have to keep trying to find the one when it seems that everyone around you has already found someone that finds them special.
I’ve been doing my best to pull forward, reminding myself that my time will (hopefully) come. I’ve also done my best to exercise and take care of myself, seeing myself as an attractive person hopefully will do wonders for my dating life.
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